Lucid Dreaming

Everyone dreams. I am, however not prone to remembering my dreams very well or to what they call “lucid dreaming.” Lucid dreaming is a dream in which the person is aware that they are dreaming and can often control some aspects of the dream itself. It’s also known as conscious dreaming. It is not something I have any memory of, at least not in the recent past. However I think my being sick, perhaps the combination of drugs (DXM maybe?) I’m taking has, for the past couple of nights, allowed me a state of lucid dreaming and a memory of those dreams after I wake up. For example tonight I know of at least two dreams.

In the first one, and this is kinda odd, in the first one, I was living with a bunch of people in a flat. It was myself, my ex, her new husband, one of my friends David and one other girl whose face I never quite saw and whose name I could never quite hear clearly Plot revolves around this. So the ex is recently married, like two days married, and yet she’s so nervous about being married that we have sex. This breaks one of my rules. Never be the other person. Now it just so happens that we nearly get caught, in fact we barely have sex at all, but still I’m guilty, she’s guilty but we don’t get caught and could get away with it. Question is this, knowing it was a violation of my own rules do I go and tell her new husband? Or knowing that it was about 15 seconds of sex and then realizing it was a mistake do I just keep it a secret and not tell the husband because it would ruin a marriage? Yeah, I don’t know why I get the moral questions in my dreams either. So I decide to tell him. Now this may or may not be the right decision. It unburdens me some but totally burdens him and perhaps unnecessarily. In the dream I justified it by saying that it was possible she would cheat on him again with someone else (certainly not me) and he should be aware of it. It was odd to know I was in a dream, even have some degree of control over my actions, and still get myself into a mess like this.

There may have been more than two dreams, I vaguely remember something about living up at Kam again an having people try to take the campus hostage. It was interesting and kinda played out like my own personal Die Hard but I don’t remember enough of it.

So the second dream that I do remember was actually me being sick and while I was sick I was staying with some people, namely my boss and his family. This is again, somewhat odd. The setup resolves around me, kind of in the state I currently am, sick; and revolves around the conversations we have. Most of it is pretty mundane. Two portions I remember vividly. One was making tea. It was night, late, the kids were coming back from some church thing but I’m getting better so moving around some and went to make green tea, only I couldn’t find it. Short version is that the kids come home find me hacking out half a lung in a kitchen that looked surprisingly similar to the kitchen in the house in Kona where I grew up, and helped me make tea but we forgot to take the leaves out so I ended up drinking a bunch of green tea gunk. The second part I can remember vividly was flipping channels on TV, now I don’t actually remember seeing it, but I remember hearing some of the voices of the characters and somehow knew that the TV show Chuck was on. Why Chuck? Not really sure except I know it’s one of the TV shows my boss likes. The other thing that I can remember was that I could hear raining. It wasn’t raining in the dream but I knew I was dreaming and that it WAS raining here in the real world. So that I found kind of interesting.

So dream analysis can go crazy here. I can guess what some of this means and I’m not sure I like any of it, but felt it useful maybe to log the fact that I’ve been having lucid dreams for the past couple of nights while I’ve been on this medication. We’ll see if it sticks