Conversation and Breathing

Had a talk this morning (relatively since it's like 4AM) with a good friend, that I think calmed me down some and helped in a moment of weakness. There was once thing that I found worthy of poining out. Sometimes I forget to breathe. I get so wrapped up in thinking about all the shit, all the pain, that I sit there and think and until the last second, I forget to breathe. Then I take a deep breath, and slowly exhale and let a few seconds peace come over me. Of course then it's the same. I fall back into thinking about losing Ryen and Renell and I forget to breathe.