Repeat Stupidity and Yes, the Nice Finish Last

The worst is when you know you’re slipping into insanity. Crazy people don’t think they’re crazy. I know I’m not crazy, just frustrated. But as I’m back to both the alcohol and giving in to what Renell wants, whether it’s help with MS Access or help trying to find closure, I am again repeating the same stupid mistakes of my life. I have not accomplished the level of finality that I sought nor have I achieved the level of discipline that I promised I would

As for the nicest finishing the last, I’m tempted to say that I’m finishing last, but in truth I am finishing a different race, I am not finishing last, I am running this race along and finishing alone. Sadly misery loves company and I have none except alcohol for the moment. Oh well, at least I don’t have to think.