Random Quotes Running Through My Head Right Now

"Nothing lasts forever"
"Some things you just don't need to know"
"It's when you throw up a little, in your mouth"
"Becasue that's life"
"It was real"
"of the people I've met on the way down my shit life, your the fucking anchor"

Another day that reminds me why I drink

So we had a semi-major outage today at work. It was actually a series of different things that went on today that remind me why I drink.

To start the day, one of the new beta customers, a church no less (as if I need God to get on my fucking case more) had a phone that went down, so I'm scrabling around to get they back up and running on a different fucking island. And in the process of doing that, I manage to temporarily break the rest of the phones there.

Following that, I couldn't get to my voicemail. Lo and behold, the goddamn PIX firewall in our core network, right in front of the BFS (Big Fucking Switch) goes all to hell and we now have a voice outage so we're working on that for a few hours.

After that I still have to pack the last of my stuff to move and in the middle of this, I get a call from a customer I helped once with a DSL problem. I think I wrote about it a while ago. A couple of Japanese people at a travel agency, wrong configuration on the router. HiTel is moving their DSL from one type of connection to another and now they don't have Internet access. We in tracking this down we figure out that 1) the router needs to be reconfigured, 2) HiTel fucked us again because they're supposed to be going from frame to ATM and they had a DLCI instead of PVC information and 3) the customer still doesn't have DSL as of the time I'm writing this. So somebody is totally disorganized.

So now, today, I remember why I drink.

long day at work

Installation today at a customer site and some training. I left the house at a quater to six in the morning and got home at almost 9 PM. long day. i'm tired.

Ryen's Birthday

Ryen turns six today. We had dinner. It was generally a nice evening with a shitty ending. see post below. But Ryen was happy and that's what matters. Love. Family. I miss these things. Ryen is a smart kid, even if he does have selective hearing at time. I miss the time we got, get to spend together. I need to get joint custody. He's getting so big, so fast.

Happy Birthday Ryen!

how the fuck am i supposed to react to that

today was ryen's birthday. in the car ride home renell tells me that the first guy she cheated on me with, oh so many years ago died. got shot. i remember seeing it on the news but i guess it didn't really hit me. i kinda figured she would have forgotten the name of the guy she was fucking by now. oh well. but seriously, how the fuck am i supposed to react to that. phillip getting shot, maybe i would care, dan? what do i give a shit? i mean don't get me wrong, it's not like i was a fan or anything but i was cursing her more than him. how the shit does somebody react to that though, "by the way, the guy i was fucking around on you with years ago, he died." what the shit? am i supposed to throw a fucking party? what do you want? a cookie? at the same time, it does dredge up memories that mean i'm going to go drink until i pass out now. i've got about four shots worth of rum in me and a fresh bottle whiskey. yay for alcohol poisoning. the sad irony is that there is still something there, love, i don't know. i need to stop thinking about it because it still hurts. pain might be how you know you're alive but this is just bullshit. the first cut is still the deepest. i hate people. yay for bushmills.

I just lost an hour of my life

Listening to a totally incoherent conversation and I'll never get it back.
actually it was more like an hour and a half with the neighbor.

Some Quotes I wanted to remember....

“They also serve who only stand and wait.” John Milton.

“Iron rusts from disuse; stagnant water loses its purity and in cold weather becomes frozen; even so does inaction sap the vigor of the mind.” – Leonardo Da Vinci

“Committee – a group of men who individually can do nothing but as a group decide that nothing can be done.” – Fred Allen

“A woman is like a teabag, only in hot water do you realize how strong she is.” – Nancy Reagan

“California is a fine place to live – if you happen to be an orange.” – Fred Allen

“High school is closer to the core of American experience than anything else.” – Kurt Vonnegut.

“Speak when you are angry and you will make the best speech you will ever regret.” – Ambrose Bierce.

Feb. bleh.

I don't know what it is about this time of year but I'm just not a big fan of Feb. Pretty much the whole month. I mean yeah, there's Valentine's Day but that's basically tax day for romance.

On the flip side my dad, Ryen and Renell are all born pretty much within a week of each other. I actually missed my dad's birthday this year. Tried calling him on the 7'th but didn't get an answer. Ryen's on the 13'th. There's supposed to be a party for him.

It's also bloody freezing lately. Granted, not as cold as some of the places on the mainland, I mean it's not -20 or anything like that, but it's cold for Hawaii and I'm a warn weather people.

Other than having a crappy month, it's mostly just the norm. Work, occasional sleep. I have a friend staying here for a couple of weeks while she finds a new place to live so there's that...Eh whatever. I need to sleep more.